Juz a moment of thoughts!

My last entry was during Ramadhan! Imagine, that was like 2/3 months back! Well, that's how bz my life can be. But on the other hand, it is all about how you manage your time. So here I am, was updating my other blogs so thought I'd drop a few lines here.
Yesterday, I had a 'harsh' talk with my maid. She's going back soon as her contract is coming to an end. These past few months, her work has been sloppy. But I didn't make any noise. And she started making requests of hp, wanting to shop for family, wanting money to send home, to spend here before going home....goodness! I wouldn't want any confusion or argument about her pay later...so straight in her face I told her that no shopping no advance, NOTHING! I DO felt bad after that but I had to put things clearly right!
Then, later yesterday night, was talking to hubby about next year. Whether to get another maid or to send the kidz to childcare. Even though Aqil is now turning 2 but he's not close to his paternal grandma. Unlike Arisya and Ariq. Maybe because he's been taken care by my maid since infant!
And with my mother-in-law alwayz having pains especially her legs, its gonna be difficult for her to take care of Arisya and Aqil.
So, my decision has yet to be made. Was surfing the web for childcares and need to do some calculations as we are talking about 2 kidz here! Sigh! It is TOUGH being a parent!